a samaritaine,cest tres jolie ou non???
avec Henry,Surina et Ujang

ETEN, ESSEN,MANGER AND MANGAN

BT Buener hari ini, one of my staffs brought my lunch one frozen baked macaroni...I felt they bullied me because they think I never get angry and very easy person so they can do whatever they want...
So I started today with a full of anger.
Arrived in the office and finished one portion of ketoprak, actually I have finished my brekkie at home, one bread and one cup of yoghurt , then now having one small cup kacang ...aaaahhhh gila...I always finish my anger with a lot of food.
Tomorrow need to go to the gym and burned my calories which I got today.

I DONT LIKE MONDAY

Went to the gym this morning..Sandra Just got back from Holland, I need to see her this week. I really hope that we can be a good friend to each other..She is a nice lady and always cheers up.
I like her a lot.
Today is quite busy for me, find some datas and preparing for forum Asean which will be held in dec.
I am a bit annoyed because the three maids of mine can not be a good team, they always blame to each other if there is something happened at my house.
Merde!!!! but I also try to understand that they are not well educated enough..I feel sorry for them. I remember when I worked in one chinesse restaurant,in Stanford city. It was a hard job just only to earn money..so I need them and I have to respect them too.

Malas....

After 2 days with big meals now am thinking to follow the fasting..hehehe can not..I just planning to go to citos for lunch..

Feeling better

I woke up this morning, feel so good banget gue.Maybe because I spent my night at the gym.
Need to go back early today, I have a dinner at mine, invited some colleague to break their fast today at my house.
Tomorrow also a dinner at Kim apartment, I will cook for some diving friends, I will cook french food for them.Coq au vin and jambon casoullet..
Thanks for Msr.Antoine who inspired and taught me how to cook french food. It s a pitty Java bleu is closed, thats my fav restaurant..especially if there were a lot french people who dinned there...always....hunting!!!!

My terrible day....

Think I need some days off to be alone, or I take willem to Singapore just two of us , think will be very nice..
I dont understand why still feel like this..thats why I never like to fall in love with someone.
yesterday night chatted with Yeyen and Ade and then maya came also. Maybe am going again for diving this sunday, feel so bad and miserable..
I dont like to get this kind of feeling like this, I dont want to miss someone, I don't like to sing a kind of romantic song, an act for a desperate woman...stupid and unreasonable...
Thats why I avoid to get close with someone...
Need to hurry, I have an appoinment with Imas for lunch in setiabudi building...
Shit you know what, one of my colleague always listening to Ari Lasso, that lyrics get the point of my feeling today....Merci pour le gentil a moi
Better I keep looking for my wonderful instructor lahhh...Mas ABI..guanteng rekkk..this is we called the rejeki..

GILA!!

Oh my God and your god..I talked to my boy friend, he advised me to text him then I did it..
He replied me wow...
but you know what..! I know he is a crazy handsome guy but please anybody can help me to get him out of my head...
But why? since I know him, I can forget thomas... is that good isnt it?
Anyway I got another interview on friday, dont know yet since the office is too far from here.
Yesterday went to Dominique' s house, met Jerome, since he is not happy to find out that I came back to work with Marc.
Be patiente honey, Je' attend pour autre le travaille mais ..cest ne pas facille..
Life is not complicated but also not so easy...
Poor Rina
Pix with Edouard and Jerome my lovely friends...Je nous'aime

SEBELLL

I came late to the office today. it was big raining in kemang and as you know what always happened to jakarta after raining, traffic, mess up, muddy so terrible..
Marc is also in the bad mood, maybe he is tired but he is not very energetic as usual.
I dont know why but the more I forget him, the more I miss him..you are bloody Ian..He is not handsome, not so smart, small,bold, and not so good in shape, he even is a bit weird..but why??? can you please find the answer for me?
I have willie now, he is a good guy, good father, good man, good finansial..hehehe but still I have something for Ian, am I wrong? I dont wanna this feeling stay in my heart ,in my mind everyday, make me tired, because I know he is untouchable and also out of reach.I still cant help myself to think about him.
Met him almost 2 years ago somewhere with my friend,the first time I saw him, I was a little bit shock, I thought he was Thomas, how come, he looks like him very much.
Since then I admire him,even I saw him many times with many different girls.
I know this is crazy,but thanks to him, he made me forget thomas after all this time.For willie, I am sorry if you find out this site, dont wanna to be bad for you but this is my feeling and I dont know how it come to my life...
I'm only a human schat....

Quiet...

Ngantuk banget sih gue..habis ke Gym,mampir bentar ke bubbles..
Tomorrow got invitation for dinner in Dominique's house..
Inderdaad ik ben erg moe want morgen wil ik terug naar de gym om te sporten.
Maar ik vind ook gezelig met oude vriendenen ontmoeten, er is Jerome ook daar..ik wil over hem vragen..yeeeee
Wet het niet, langzaam vinf ik moeilijk om een vriend te hebben,misschien van mijn oud of ik hab neeit meer so veel vrienden.
Jamer toch, ik hou van omgang..

Monday morning


Here we are again.. get up early,take a bath,breakkie,traffic and stressy...
I will finish all my works today then think what is for the next....
Yesterday went to church..wow I dont need to go to china town for hunting, I just can pick one of them there..so many bold chinesse..
Had lunch in eaton and hang out with Maya in Mr.Bean.that's all so relax and quiet.
Just make a budget for next month, I want to have a new car..hopefully can get one this year...keep dreaming baby

New Hair cut

I am feeling so lazy today..again?? dont know why but I lost my mood to work hard as usual ..hhhmmm since I am not very busy lately. Maybe I have too much energy to spend..
Yesterday went to the hair cut, I made it to new salon,never tried before.I had a Korean stylish,actually I was a bit worried because he couldnt speak English very well so I didnt get his point. I had a very bad experienced with a japanese who cant speak english..leave me a bad trauma!!
Finally he started to do his job with my nice hair, I just trust him from the way he look, he is look like one star korean movie..heheheHe made it very well, Ilike my new model a lot.Thanks Kim..
And last night I had a dinner with some friends in RIVA, went well. I enjoyed the food very much only when the bill get over to out table, I didnt like the amount.
Thierry is getting used to us, I told them about my experienced last week with my dive trip. They were laughing to find out that I am using my instructor shortpant since I lost mine.
We plan to go dive together after Aurelie back from Japan...Japan??? haaaaaa
I was thinking to quit my job but maybe after december before off to Brisbane.
After the big meal we continued it to stix and having some beer and diet coke, I didnt take wine last night,too much for me.
You know what, we had discussion with maya on the wasy home. We talked about how we could suffer just only for being a wise woman for them. It was useless so we prefer to be the one who loved by them not to love them. Man are craps, the more you like him the more they far from you.They are weird things.
Oops need to get back to work..I just want to hold my guling and turn the air con and fly to my dream...merder...

Sakit euyyyy


Feeling bad today...headache and my nose is block.
Yesterday night went out to bugils meet up with a friend from Belgium. What a terrible story happened to him.He is from the haves so after one and half year fighting in the court, he can finally meet with his kids.
I bring with me also one of my friend, who is facing her divorce now.
They discussed together what they can get and they can loose in the court.
I am thinking about this life...Life is not complicated but it is not easy, Did you ever know what happened today when you just got married??Life was so full love and now changing to the anger and become enemy to each other.
We always make a joke when we come up to the lift and there is a picture of newlywed, I dont know what does it come from but we always say..we want to see you in the next 5 years, are you still going to laugh like this or you are full of bullshit???
My self, if you asking me, what am looking for in the marriage life? I completly dont know how to answer it!!!! I miss my bachelor life, I miss to stay at my mum's house..I miss to be alone, I miss to spend my weekend just only hiding in my room...
But cest la vie..la vie est mysteriouse...Cest tres difficile..
Well, friends just fight for your happiness..
Today, I am still calling for sick, I feel so hard to work..malas!!!!!!
Thinking about holiday in London..hhmm would it be very nice.I wish could come back there..walking in hyde park, take some break in covent garden and dinner in china town..also visiting him.
heeyy girl wake up please..get back to work. Tonite I will stay home and get a rest,dont wanna go out again,save my money for menado...

Krakatau brings back my memories


I am sick better stay home to recover and take a rest. Lucky me have a boss who very flexible, so still want to work with french company? sure why not!!
I think I got sick because last sunday trip was tiring, I made it to krakatau. Diving with some new buddies, was not too bad.They are very nice and kind to me. Actually this dive trip is not so good, wave was so rough, Viz was bad, current was pretty cool and on the way back I thought I was going to have jackpot, so I hold tight my chair, I falled asleep. It was much better than I stay awake, but how can I sleep in that situation...thats me hehehe, in bed I am hardly to sleep, they called me sleepless Rina hehehe.

Krakatau has a special place in my memory, It was 8 years a go. I went there with some friends, stayed overnight with tents. It was a great time for me, when he bring me a flower in the next morning. I was so flattered but I wish I could be like now at that time. I was so shy and too nervous, so everything was not going normal..hhhmmmm so I learnt french,English and trying to open myself how to interact with him..
Until the riot separated us, he has to come back to his merder country and me..????waiting for him?? I was so confused, where I was going to?I know he is very adventurer and we were also very young I was just 24 and he was 27. We didnt even think about married..still far from my mind.
He promised me to come back here and he made it but everything had changed, I didnt hold on to our relation anymore. I worried about my future.So we finished, he went to Myanmar and I went to Aussie..
Is that finished??? Not yet...until I met him in London, you know what?? I miss him a lot, I really wanted to say it to him..but again...I was speechless,I was pretending nothing happened to me,SHIT!!!POUTANT!!! He is not change, still cool and shy guy.
I have waited for 8 years to see him again but useless..I am still a coward...but there is a good news,he doesnt have a girlfriend..is that effect me? of course not but I am glad to find it out..:-)
He told me that he was going for sailing for 6 months..thats him..that is a real him.
Hope he doesnt surf to this site, so he wont read my blog..
Anyway, let it be lahh that is my past,I can do nothing with it. I live with my own life and he has his own life.He brings a lot of thing to my life, he made me learning french, try to something new,even now I still in a french group. If he knows what I feel about him..I MISS YOU A LOT !!

Friday?? je nai pas beacoup de travaille au jourd hui. J aime bien de occupee
Mais I am very excited for tomorrow for another trip to krakatau. No dumber member this time? I am going with new buddies. will see tomorrow.I even dont know them yet but its ok lah as long as they are nice people.
I need to be very pelit now since I spend a l ot to my dive trip. Next week to menado?? is that real or not? I got an offer to papua for 15 days but it takes too long, I have a lot of things to do for my next event in December before trip to Aussie.
Papua...thats my dream, I really want to go there, I heard that papua is a very good site for diving but 15 days? I will get fired by my boss. cest la vie, you can not mix work with pleissure.
Tonite am going to Erasmus for cabarret, actually I killed myself to go there, I have no idea when they talking with their dialek.
the other side is I am happy to see my friends there and also meet new people...
Its time for lunch... makan dumu yahhhh