DAMN...I WAS TOUCHED

Back from office and heh??????????????? my staff said..Ibu, you got one cake and a letter from Ibu Maya...owwww
then I started to read the letter..I was really touched and almost burst into tears..so sweet..Lucky me I didnt get so over reacted with her, and I am very happy than we can solved the problem now.Moi aussi, Je t'aime beaucoup...
Then she asked to go with Thiti and Cyrill, we made it first to Aphrodite and we moved to CJ's, Buddy...wait, we saw some shark in the 5 viz, ready to move??then we try to do CESA, got it..oh la la..they are dutch...oooohh mijn kleine wimpie.They are from Java jazz, and funny because one of them is a bit tipsy and he was really about to join us to stadium (hari gene???) but you know..as a mature and well manner woman, we droped them to their hotel and they are safe.After that..maya and me was trying to find out their room..yeach only for the free ticket...MATREEEEE
Now..I am feelin like flying because I really tired but my eyes cant close..

picture with sandra in "extremely party"

SUNDAY

I just drop Willie to Airport and did shopping in Plaza senayan.
Last friday I think its very hard for me, I came to say goodbye to Sandra. we had a chit chat in her bedroom..and I mentioned dont forget to pack her "CANDY G-STRING"...hahahaaa Eric was run away to another room...
Strange and sad!!!!!!I keep reading all message from her and make me sad and can't help to cry.

FRIDAY ..JE SUIS SANS L'ESPRIT,JE DETESTE, JE MALAS

Bring the kids to the school and have some coffee with all "working mama's. This is the last day for Sandra, max and Bas in this school..PITYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I am not going to the ofice today, I fed up for not being so busy, lazy, lost my good mood, feel so weak...I cant imagine, I mean I can not stand if I have nothing to do.
Last night I had Sushi with Gina ( I am sorry to break my promise for saving money...ahhhh) and I had more than enough..no space anymore in my stomach..)
putaint...and I am thinking about to do another business and back to my college or start my own business or get another job...CONFUSING!!!!

Wine and tipsy???

I just back from Sandra's house, she gave me some of her jewelry collections as a present for me.
It was a nice and quiet evening for me, we talking a lot and finally Eric joined us after back from his trip from malaysia. We had wine and I didnt realize that I had 3 glasses of wine..oh la la..I feel my head a bit dizzy and my lips was getting hard..girl, its time to stop!
I enjoyed a lot this conversation with them, I told Sandra that I like her so much because for me she is a good friend who confessed me to the world that I am her friend.Thats more than enough for me.
THANKS SANDRA FOR GIVING ME YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON....
we keep talking and suddenly I found out that willem was there...oowww I must go home now, its bed time for him...
so I went home, and now i writing my blog, tell everything here about my feeling.
I have so many bad experiences with friends who betrayed me, thats why I feel so sad to see Sandra leaving this country.
She offered me a friendship and she meant it.
You can have a lot money and you can be a beautiful girl, a good job...but CAN YOU BUY A FRIENDSHIP WITH ALL THIS THINGS??
For me, its nothing more important than a friendship, because with them you can share your problems, your happiness and your part as a human being.. one of part of human is to make and help other to be happy?? not to let them down..isn't it?????

I NEED A NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!!

I did send my CV to many companies and I had also some interviews for them but this time I really want to quit from my job, I need a new one..oh Please God help me...
Today, went to the gym and did with my PT after that as I promised to Willem to pick him up from the school, so I went there...uhhhh he was very happy to see me there.
Then I did grocery and within one hour I will have some "borreltje" with Sandra..for the last time????????? oh no...stay here my dear...why you should move to another country?? I WILL MISS YOU DEFINETLY!!!!

MONDAY

I went to the office today and you know what, all computers are working for GEOConcept so I could not work with my stuffs.This is really made me pissed off because what should I do there? day dreaming the whole day? or have some chatting with other staffs? oh la la....merder.
Went to my mum's house and had a big bowl of "kwetiao goreng" ehhmm I am really craving for this thing.
And ibu bought me some rambutans..is it for your dessert? are you a woman or a giant big cookie monster?
And had some chat with her and finally I called my Personal trainer, I know this is the way to sacrifice your self and your guilty after "kwetaio case" hahahhaa
I said to my self..I am not going to have dinner, what happened after that? I bought a chocolate bread and finish it with Pak Wahyu "my driver" and arrived home, I saw some "balado Chicken" (forget about the flu burung) and the hot rice..oh la la..j'ai faim...qoi???? encore??????? c'est ne pas assez?????? qui et toi?? une grand moster?
I am thinking about my friends...I really want to have a trully friendship, but I know I cant look for it, it will come by itself.I am fed up with people who betrayed me and always childish...

JE SUIS MALADE

I went home earlier yesterday, I was sick..my head hurt and I throwing up so many times..

and I took one "panadol" and zzzzzzzzzzz

After that I feel so starving and I finsihed one bowl of rice and 4 pieces of fish..WHAT???? are you rakus or what???

Finished my dinner and I am not dare to see my scale..I just passed it when I through to the bath room..hihihih

I went sleep at 9 ...(u must be kiddin?)

now..am ready for work..wait I need to call some friends for having coffee in citos..huh.thats what you called work??

BUGILS


Last night I went to 'Girls Night out" in bugils..with alle dames..nice but you now there is still a group in between..
I had an erwten soep..(always???) and a frikandel...(again?) and finally Frites...forget my Instructor, my fat burner my sport member..I DONT CARE..

Hmm..I heard something about Mr. Bumphead, he has a japanesse girlfriend..WHAT??? I was just about screaming to hear it...NOOOOOOOO....but lucky me I realized that He is not mine. Maybe its true..I forget him but not released him...I must admit that he stole my heart..cie ela...

Just now..I had some sticky rice..my colleague brought me some after I teased him to bring me..before I had 1 bread with goud a kaas..ehhmm lekker zeg.

ENCORE LA FETE???? OH LALA MON DIEU

Last friday went to the party of Leong hup and we ended up in bugils, met Nita and her friend...then..mabuk.
I felt so terrible, headache,dizzy and my stomach was so uhhhhhh throwin up so many times...and ? you are gonna give up wines??? hhmmm one its ok lah??
On saturday, we went again to the party of Sandra and Eric,was great music was ok, not too hot but I was not so OK so we went home early (at 12) and I just went sleep directly...
Also today, another party for MAX and BAS, I was a bit stress because I did organise the things but sandra called me with loudly voice, and my brain start thinking...oh no..not now..at the end of our time, I dont want to spoil again this relationship...
so I was a bit panic, keep calling the guy who is the leader of this group.
I tried to calm down and try to understand that Sandra is in a hurry and she is also in stress. Finally everything is OK, the kids loved it and mom are also happy....
Now I can do inhale....
To see her sitting in her big house and try to forget that she will leave at the end of this month, make me feel so sad. I think my friendship with her is meaningfull to me. She taught me how to be "stricht" and how to respect the friendship. I rememmber she once got angry to me, because I didnt show up with my promise, and I "was" too many excuses..but I understand that I was not supposed like that.
I should respect other people and be honest to your self, if YES and if NO just say NO.
Now Sandra, Would like to thank you again for everything..your scolded, your loudly voice and also your shoulder to cry on...THAT MEAN MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME....
I LOVE YOU SAN


ps...

According to bestfriend...
I am a bit fed up with Maya, because I think she burned the bridge..I did effort all my self just to be her "real friend" but its only one way..she betrayed and denied me so few times..THAT IS ENOUGH FOR ME

Imas..
always come from my side, once I asked her..why you didnt call me..I am scare that you were busy..is that what we called a "friendship"???
I will get angry if she call me while I am busy???

One thing I learned is...

Never trust anybody...so you can imagine how I feel now...to see Sandra leave from here..my heart is broken!!!!!!

CITOS, DIVING AND PARTY


I spend 4 or 5 days evening at gym now..I am now still 58, I want to make 55 ...in next two months.
This friday is a party for colleague of Willie, and saturday Luisa has a photo session and saturday night is a party for my love SANDRA.
Time does fly when you enjoyed it..doesnt it????
I think I can not make a dive trip this week..so many things to do...but I feel more paranoid since I do regular exercise..if I get something to eat..make me fee so horrible..am scare to get fat again.
To be honest, I am so sad to see Sandra leave me, I really enjoyed my friendship with her, but thats life as an expatriate, you never know!!!!
I will put some our pictures here later...
Sandra, I would like to thank you for being my best friend..remember you always as a good beautiful person..high tempered just like me, very friendly but also sensitive..once again like me!!!

LA FETE LA FETE.....

Went to Cj with some vrouwtje last friday..bahhhh that place is so bad..music was ok but people are not more than 'playboy cap kerupuk" you know why we called it kerupuk?? because if one chip get some water it become very "melempem" so that time was very "wasting my money" for nothin...

and last saturday I went to the party of Tamara and JB, met Titi and Mya...wow this is we called a very nice party...but still there are some playboy cap kerupuk...

and sunday..ended up with sleepy all day..not went to the church, lazy and sleepy....lousy mom..am I?

This Saturday still has another party for Sandra....ahhhhhhh time does fly but pity the less I can see her..she is busy with her things and so am I here...busy for what???

becak in singapore

peace mannnn

Santi and elmar anniversaire

GYM

I feel better now..my body feel so fresh and fit everyday since I went to the gym early in the morning everyday,before I am up to the office.

Last week, I lost my mood to go the office, feel so down and no energy.

Its gettin better now and I sent my resume to many companies, hope can hear from them soon.

This saturday, IQ asked me to join the dive trip to ujung kulon but I must save my money for buying some diving equipment, so I must think over it.

I spent my weekend to go to the gym and do exercise with my personal trainer, seems I have some improvement with my body, my muscle is getting hard and my tummy is more light. I must achieve the goal, need to lose 3 more kilos for this two months. So stop eating,forget your tiramisu, forget your "gebakken rijs"in eaton and also Roti bakar EDY.hehehhehe

I also want to use my quality times with my kids, oh they are so nice even sometime I feel lost my patience with them, when Luisa does crancky and Willem was a bit tantrum..oh la la..mais cest bien, il sont tres gentil et mignon...

Wait...you know what, lately I did chatting in yahoo...this is really crazy, I never met a normal people or nice people..so I am a bit surprise why people do like chatting in this room, I prefer to send an email, this kind of rubbish things.

its been long time for me not to see my "friends" in dragon fly, I like that place, of course many handsome chinesse, do I change my direction now...??? hahahhaha I followed my friend's path maya, since she crushed with Henry,all "bule" does not look interesting anymore for us, so now..throw away your " brad pitt's poster and put your f4 screen saver, ken watanabe ...oh gosh ..please dech..did you just get your first periode or what...ABG sekaleeeee