Krakatau brings back my memories


I am sick better stay home to recover and take a rest. Lucky me have a boss who very flexible, so still want to work with french company? sure why not!!
I think I got sick because last sunday trip was tiring, I made it to krakatau. Diving with some new buddies, was not too bad.They are very nice and kind to me. Actually this dive trip is not so good, wave was so rough, Viz was bad, current was pretty cool and on the way back I thought I was going to have jackpot, so I hold tight my chair, I falled asleep. It was much better than I stay awake, but how can I sleep in that situation...thats me hehehe, in bed I am hardly to sleep, they called me sleepless Rina hehehe.

Krakatau has a special place in my memory, It was 8 years a go. I went there with some friends, stayed overnight with tents. It was a great time for me, when he bring me a flower in the next morning. I was so flattered but I wish I could be like now at that time. I was so shy and too nervous, so everything was not going normal..hhhmmmm so I learnt french,English and trying to open myself how to interact with him..
Until the riot separated us, he has to come back to his merder country and me..????waiting for him?? I was so confused, where I was going to?I know he is very adventurer and we were also very young I was just 24 and he was 27. We didnt even think about married..still far from my mind.
He promised me to come back here and he made it but everything had changed, I didnt hold on to our relation anymore. I worried about my future.So we finished, he went to Myanmar and I went to Aussie..
Is that finished??? Not yet...until I met him in London, you know what?? I miss him a lot, I really wanted to say it to him..but again...I was speechless,I was pretending nothing happened to me,SHIT!!!POUTANT!!! He is not change, still cool and shy guy.
I have waited for 8 years to see him again but useless..I am still a coward...but there is a good news,he doesnt have a girlfriend..is that effect me? of course not but I am glad to find it out..:-)
He told me that he was going for sailing for 6 months..thats him..that is a real him.
Hope he doesnt surf to this site, so he wont read my blog..
Anyway, let it be lahh that is my past,I can do nothing with it. I live with my own life and he has his own life.He brings a lot of thing to my life, he made me learning french, try to something new,even now I still in a french group. If he knows what I feel about him..I MISS YOU A LOT !!