SLEEPY
It was quite long I didnt write my log...
I didnt know what I have to write but in fact I feel a lot of feelings.
Didnt go to bali for diving, and also cancelled to Sabang as well.
I learnt one thing this week, You have to feel blessed with all you get in your life..stop complaining and say thanks to God, for his blessing in your life.
I went to beaujolais last night..was great meet a lot of friends, especially french friends.
About Ian, Just a part of my path in my life.
I hope I can get a new job soon better than mine now.
I lost my weight for 2 kilos
then now...Say thanks God because He loves me so much

Ma,ben je sick??
That was a nice words who came up from a small mouth my Lieve Willem...How sweet he is..I LOVE YOU WILLEM.
I played with them in the big raining today, I remember of my childhood, I was very happy when there was raining after school so I can walk in the raining...
I let them explored how it was..We biked together and let them walked in the pond..
They are very original and hopefully they have a sweet memories of their childhood.
Just back from Citos, chatted with Maya in Bakerzin.We talked about our life, Life is not supposed to be fun actually but please who can brings back the sparks???

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
Oh yeah

Quiet night, am listening to my "Chris Martin" and writing my blog...Just talked to Jordan..I miss him a lot.
Went to the cinema with Willem and Luisa, They watched Zorro and myself watched apa artinya cinta..hehehe very ABG ya...
I enjoyed myself a lot when I was alone in the cinema..
Maybe I am a stupid one because I keep thinking about him but maybe he even doesnt recognize me at all..but I enjoyed a lot my feeling about him.
Last week of holiday, need to go back work again....Poutant..Wish I was in Aussie, remember after finished work..walking around in the city, usually I bought some food from hungry jack and finish it in the park..or just killed my day in SouthBank..or in ST.Lucia..very sweet memories..I miss my friends there, they are all a'transexual"but they are a very good friend of mine.I will looking for them when I go there next month.
Please bring me to his dream tonite,it was nice to see you even only for a minute.
Catch up with Evelyn, I know her when I was in Brissy..Keep smiling girl..be strong and if you need a shoulder to cry on..I will give you mine..

PS. pic in Aussie..in QVB

Wish I could change my life...
I feel so confused , dont know what to say. Its not about my ....,about Thomas its only about myself.
I really want to be alone right now,think about my future. I dont know what should I say..
If you say I still love willie, I still trying to find what the meaning of love is?
Willie is a good guy, but I have so many differential with him. I found trouble to understand him but I dont want something bad happen to him....

Sorry Mom...
I felt so guilty after had an argue with my mom so I apologized to her today and I kiss her hand just to say how I love her so much.
Today I went to the cinema watched the zorro..hahahaa When I was watching the movie and still keep thinking of that bloody guy suddenly the actor mentioned the company where he work...can I called it the instinct...
Lord, bless my parents and my family..I love you so much guys...especially my parents, without you I am nothing mom...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD
Dont know why but I feel so bad today. I feel always guilty when I had a problem with my mom.Actually I never want to be bad for her because I know she is very important to me and in my life but sometime I also cant help myself to hide from this.I think I need to go to the "anger management class' I just want people to respect me as I respect them. I try mybest to make other people happy. I am not a perfect but I am trying to be good for them.
Also I always feel bad when willie talked to me in a high tempered, sometime these kind of things which make me want to run away from him. Why should I feel kind of this. It not very easy to understand him but I always want to cry if I face this problems. I am not asking him to change just for me but at least he understand that I also a human who not a perfect one. If you say do I love him? I dont know how to answer,he is a good guy ,a good father,a good man, but we have many differentials and I know its very difficult to face them.
Happy birthday to my dad, We love you very much and thanks for everything...