Its been long time didn't write on my blog, after spent 3 weeks holiday in Holland...was a great time with my family. It was summer and was bloody hot for me, but I loved it really!
Wish I could live there....(am I sure?)
Will put some pics later on...
And you know, what happened to me lately...I met him the bloody guy, he was nice actually and I like to smell his parfume (?) but dunno, the spark is stil there but I dont dare my self to follow it, because I know, its heading nowhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And yesterday, funny thing happened, I introduced him to my new friend "desty", I try to lie to my self about my feeling DAMNED IT, I cant lie...we turned out in his appartment and talking to him, I was trying to be normal as I could but.......my hands were cold,my feet were shivering, my mouth was shuted up and my eyes cant see him...but but....I talking about kids.
That the way I could do to calm my self..foolish me, I always act like that when I was nervous...or maybe I am also a shy girl????hehehehhehe
I miss him..its true, I dont know how can I let myself down like this.....
One thing I should admit to myself, I can't be his friend and I can't also present him a girlfriend...its really hurt me...
I should happy with what am having now, because I am surely know, he loves my kids more than anything..what is the best thing in my life? I am asking my self??find the answer? MY KIDS
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