CONFUSED

Sometimes I feel jealous to see other people who their life goes so smooth. I mean like Ratih, she is fine with her life,having two kids,hubby, her life is just well and went well.I think mine is also fine, good hubby, two lovely kids,good job, many friends around me but something I miss from my life..dont know what it is.Actually I miss the sparks,sort of that feeling..
I think about to see my best buddy in the state, he will work there from february so another exuce for me to visit state.
Its been for 2 weeks I stayed home so many things to do also at my office everybody are so hectic to finish this job.I love for being busy.
Also I plan next week want to go for diving, after one month paused from it.
Well..actually I am still curious or remember whatever it is lah...about the bloody guy from scotland..I am crazy..am I